The Simple Woman's Daybook

For today... March 8, 2010

Outside my window... another beautiful day!! It's supposed to hit 50 degrees today- can't wait to open some windows and enjoy the fresh air!!

I am thinking... nope- don't want to think or feel or love or trust- hurts too much!

I am wearing... still in my jammies- lazy day, but not for long

I am remembering... trying not to remember- it still hurts too much!

I am hoping... to never again have to see my ex!! He and I had an unpleasant encounter last week- kinda ruined my whole week and has still left me in a very dark place. Can do without that darkness in my life!

On my mind... someone said to me recently that homemade gifts and cards are in poor taste. I had to disagree. Personally I think that they show the heart of the giver for the person receiving the gift. I think I'd rather give and receive a homemade gift than any other. Thoughts??

Noticing that... I haven't been able to pray for myself lately. No problem praying for others- but I think I'm afraid to tell God my needs, although I know He already knows them. Realizing that my relationship with God needs some healing... a lot of "WHY??", and little trusting.

Pondering these words... "get over it".... yes, someone said that to me recently in regards to everything that has happened lately. I wish it were that easy!!!

From the kitchen... a cake- a big cake...!!!

Around the house... a "warmish" week ahead- lots of open windows and spring cleaning!!!!

One of my favorite things... horse kisses! Yes, seriously.... was at CTK yesterday visiting with the horses and to my surprise, one of the horses (a VERY large one) just started nuzzling my face and laying his head up against mine. It was SO sweet!!!! This may have made my week- maybe year!! :-)

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Wordless Wednesday- My Baby Liebe

Does it ever get easier?

Does the pain ever get easier?

In the midst of the wonderful celebration of Fr Nigel's first healing service since his H1N1 nightmare began (235 people- such love!)- I had a painful, glaring reminder of all my loss over the last months.

Ben, my babies, my home... life as I knew it.

Does the pain EVER get easier?

The Simple Woman's Daybook

FOR TODAY... March 1, 2010

Outside my window... slightly overcast, but getting warmer- spring may actually be on the way!

I am thinking... about a friend (a priest) whose church is about to close, due to lack of funds and lack of members. I find this incredibly sad! My heart absolutely broke- for him, for his congregation AND for the WHOLE body of Christ, when he told me the other day. I think this makes a sad statement about our world. I will be praying for this church, that God can somehow turn the situation around in time.

I am thankful for... Fr. Nigel's return to work today after five VERY, VERY long months! Did you know that statistics show that one in three people who enter ICU with H1N1, will not make it out? Thank you God for the miraculous healing of our dear friend!! Tomorrow will be his first healing service since this horrible scenario... expecting A LOT of people tomorrow! It will be a VERY special day... what a celebration!!! Wonder if Bishop Bill will allow us to say the "A" word... (you know, the one we can't say during Lent!)??

I am wearing... jeans, green sweater, white turtleneck, barefoot

I am remembering... more than I want to... more than I am ready to (ugh, didn't I say that last week too?)!!!

I am currently reading... more blogs- do you have one you'd like to tell me about? Would love to stop by for a visit!! :-)

I am hoping... see below... really need to find a way to begin healing from this stuff!

On my mind... the usual... until I can put a voice to this stuff, I can't begin to heal- and no idea how to begin putting a voice to the stuff!?? UGH!!!

Noticing that... my oven doesn't seem to be working all that well... 1 hr to cook a batch of brownies that should take 25 minutes, might be my clue!

Pondering these words... "All that has LIFE AND BREATH come now with Praises before Him!"... hoping we'll be singing this at the healing service tomorrow. Ahhh, Mark?

From the kitchen... freshly baked brownies- from scratch... still in the oven and OH MY, they smell good! You can check out the recipe here.

Around the house... with my friend Jan coming to visit tomorrow, I have some serious cleaning to do! The place looks good in general, but needs a good mopping, vacuuming and dusting.

One of my favorite things... a hint of spring in the air!

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