Lord, Help Me Understand Your Ways

For the last couple months I have had the privilege of praying for a precious two year old named Gabriella. This past fall Gabby was diagnosed with an extremely rare congenital disease called Neurocutaneous Melanosis. There is little known about it, and there is no known cure. It attacks the central nervous system in horrible and painful ways. I came to Gabby's website somehow through a link in my little hero Ben's website. I began praying for a miracle for her here on Earth. A little over a month ago, I was sitting in my usual spot at the Tuesday Healing Service at CtK and a beautiful family came in. After a few minutes, I realized the baby was Gabby. I was blown away to see this precious child that I'd been praying for from a distance, who was now sitting right in front of me.

This morning, as I always do, I checked her website. It broke my heart today, to find that sweet Gabby had earned her Angel Wings last night. While I rejoice that she is no longer in any pain and is running free with our Lord, my heart breaks at the loss of this beautiful little Angel.

Lord, help me understand Your ways? Help me understand how you were able to turn water into wine, feed the multitudes, walk on water... but you're unable to stop people- especially children from suffering and dying from horrible diseases!!! Lord, help me understand Your ways!!!!!

While I don't in any way doubt the love of our wonderful God or question that He really does know best, I just really struggle with the issue of suffering in children. I do believe though, that while today He is happily dancing with Gabby in Heaven, He is also weeping in compassion for those of us who are grieving the Earthly loss of a very special little girl!

God Bless You, Gabby. In the short time I knew you- you really touched and blessed my life! I will never forget you!!