Thursday Thirteen

Blog surfing again.... came across a great meme (kinda a weekly blog "game" or participatory writing activity) and thought I'd try it out... soooooooooo..... thus begins my first THURSDAY THIRTEEN!

For my "thirteen things"- I thought I'd list...

The Thirteen Things I Love Most About My Church

1- Eucharist!! It's absolutely my favorite part of the service. For those who haven't been reading this since 2007, you can go here to read my post about the significance of the Eucharist in my life.

2- The Gospel readings!! They never fail to inspire me. Often I will go home and look them up in BibleGateway to read the different Bible versions of them.

3- The great homilies! My priests are truly gifted at taking the appointed readings from the day, and opening them up into wonderful life lessons!!

4- My wonderful priests! I'm blessed with the two most wonderful priests on the face of the Earth! I consider them both wonderful friends and mentors, and thank God each and every day for their presence in my life!

5- My wonderful church family! We're a small group- but we're a faith-filled and very close group! Love these people a lot!!

6- The location of the church! We're part of a larger Christian retreat center, set on nearly 700 acres of absolute beauty... included in that, is a 36 acre lake, overnight lodging for 75, a "summer" camp- used year-round, a huge dining room- with GREAT meals, two beautiful chapels, a HUGE theological library, an incredible healing ministry, and a convent with 6 Anglican nuns! The presence of God is SO evident in this place!!!

7- The close proximity to my home! Yah, I'm all of a mile away from this great place-- yah, I'm blessed!!

8- Coffee hour! Yes, I know that seems shallow and lame- but isn't Christian fellowship as important as worshiping God? We take turns providing the snacks, and usually I leave not having to have lunch! :-) We have some really good cooks in our midst!

9- The music ministry! We are blessed with a fantastic music ministry at CTK! Somewhere I heard the quote, "When you sing, you pray twice"... (or something like that)!!

10- The strong emphasis on HEALING MINISTRY! CTK is truly blessed with a very active healing ministry... from weekly healing services, to retreats on healing, to the opportunity to learn more about the healing ministry through Christian Healing Ministries, "School of Healing Prayer" classes. At any given moment you're likely to see folks laying hands on, and praying for someone in need.

11- A wonderful, strong, moral, and faith-filled Bishop!! Everyone loves Bishop Bill!!!

12- The peaceful feeling that fills the grounds of CTK- but most specifically in the Oratory of Christ the Healer (the chapel where our services are held)!! This is hard one to explain- but you walk into this building, and just are surrounded by the "peace that passes understanding".

13- The sounds of people praying and worshiping God!! There can't be anything more wonderful than this sound in the whole world!!

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Random Thoughts... Comments Appreciated!

Have you ever lost touch with someone that you considered a dear friend? Several months (shorter or longer), then regained contact with them, only to find that you'd both changed SO much, and had been through so much over those months, that you hardly knew each other? Or- did you see the changes in each other, and somehow fear trying to re-build, or even attempt the friendship again? How did you handle this? Did you attempt to re-build the friendship? Did you just choose to move on? Or were you able to pick things up, as were before, in spite of the changes to each of you? How did you handle the feelings that went with all of this?

Just random thoughts that are going through my head today... comments here would be VERY appreciated!!!

Let it Snow!!!

I know I'm taking the risk of getting plummeted by a thousand snowballs here, but I just need to say how excited I am about the multiple days of snow that appear to be ahead of us here in upstate NY. :::::ducking to avoid incoming snowballs:::: In yesterdays post, "Simple Woman's Daybook", I mentioned that I was hoping for a big snow storm this week... well, apparently I'm getting my wish.

As I write, the beginning of what is forcasted to be multiple days of snow, is just beginning. The National Weather Service is telling us that for this storm alone, we should expect anywhere between 11 to 19 inches of the beautiful :::::ducking again:::: white stuff. The only thing that worries me is that it's expected to be of the heavy variety, which could mean power outages-- not so much fun...!!!! But, barring that- and that wont happen... I don't have to go out, we have a ton of food in the apartment- (thanks to my wonderful church family), the cute guy next door will shovel the steps for us (Thanks Brian!!!), and as long as the people I care about (you know who you are!) are in, and safe, and warm- then LET IT SNOW!!

I know I'm in the minority here, but I absolutely love big snow storms! There is something so comforting about sitting by the window (as I'm doing now) and watching this blanket of soft fluff fall to the ground. It's almost like God is telling us that He wants us to slooooooowwwww down for a bit, and reflect on the simple things in life- like family... the beauty around us... making snow angels or building big snowmen... fixing a big meal because the roads are too messy to go get take-out... quiet conversations with people we care about... sitting quietly and reading a good book... yah, I could go on...!!!!...but you get it!!! Our world these days is so busy- so fast-paced... we need a reminder now and then to take a breath :::::breathe in.... breathe out::::: and JUST BE!!!!

The local weather guys are telling us that the storm today/tonight will be the SMALL storm of the week... LOL... and that Thursday to expect something BIG-- and this ISN'T big? So... my plans for the next several days will include a lot of reading (just borrowed a great book from my roommate-"When Angry Hearts Forgive: Opening the Floodgates of Glory with the Power of Forgiveness" by Robert Warren), making a big batch of brownies- the REAL kind- you know the kind with flour, sugar, chocolate..., some serious time praying and LISTENING to my wonderful God and lots and lots of time just looking out the window at the beauty of the world around me- and thanking God for his majesty and LOVE!!

Thank you God, for the BEAUTY of this storm, for keeping everyone safe and warm during it's duration, and for the important reminder to all of us to SLOOOOOOOWWWWW down and breathe!!!!

The Simple Woman's Daybook

FOR TODAY... February 22, 2010

Outside my window... another beautiful February day. We've been so blessed with such great weather this winter. Supposedly we have some sort of snow/rain type event coming tomorrow, but I'll believe it when I see it! :-)

I am thinking... that I really need to spend more time reading my Bible. I've gotten away from that over the last few weeks, and can feel it in my heart.

I am thankful for... my wonderful church family!! Yesterday, after church, as a complete surprise, they presented my roommate and I with a "congrats on your new home" card- along with baskets-boxes-bags of groceries (and a wonderful gift card)- everything from pasta/sauce to juices. One friend, even thought of the most important food group- CHOCOLATE, and remembered my sweet little Liebe, with food for her!!! We were absolutely overwhelmed- and are SO appreciative of not only their thoughtfulness, but their LOVE!! Thank you God for my church family!!!

I am wearing... jeans, white sweater, barefoot

I am remembering... my fur babies that I lost because of the foreclosure... I cant even begin to put into words how much this still hurts. No idea how to begin to heal from this!!! Suggestions?

I am going... no where this week-- I love weeks like that!!

I am currently reading... blogs... I love blog-surfing- especially Christian blogs!!! I love reading others thoughts and ideas-- and really love collecting great tried and true recipes too!!

I am hoping... for a big snow storm this week!!

On my mind... a lot... about a lot of STUFF... words for this stuff??-- nah!!! Just more of stuffing the stuff back in and further down!! I'm thinking it's not going to be pretty when it comes back to the surface some day!

Noticing that... God has been speaking to me a lot about forgiveness and letting go lately. From a random "message from God" (it's an application) on Facebook reminding me that I need to begin letting go and start trying to forgive myself for a bunch of stuff, to suddenly finding the blog of a friend and coming face to face with his post about forgiveness- reminding me to lay my hurt and unforgiveness at the foot of the cross and to turn away from it... yah, so I guess I'm starting to get the message!! But-- (didn't you know there was a BUT coming??!...)- while forgiveness is the law for Christians, and something that we're clearly required to do, it's also REALLY hard!! In the issues with my father, I'm realizing that I need to keep forgiving him- day after day after day. Yah, he's been gone for over 25 years now- but as memories of the various forms of abuse creep back in- and the way they effect my life, I churn with anger inside!!! I know I need to give this stuff to God each and every day- some days that's easier said than done. The issues of the last few months have created a lot of anger at myself-- I kick myself constantly for not being more intelligent, for the poor choices I'd made... etc. I think forgiving myself is harder than anything- not really even sure how to do it. I keep hearing people say to "let it go"... truthfully, I'm not really even sure HOW to do that! Comments here would be VERY appreciated!!

Pondering these words... "turn away from it"- yah, I know I have to (thanks Dcn Frank!! )

From the kitchen... not sure yet- any suggestions? BTW- the chicken pot pie that I made last week (recipe link in last weeks daybook) turned out really well- it was SO good! I will absolutely be making this again!!! Just made myself a big yummy tuna sandwich- made the way I make it with cream cheese and Italian salad dressing... don't say "ewww gross" until you try it!! :-)

Around the house... I think I might actually be able to see light at the end of the unpacking tunnel. We spent several hours working at it and, lo and behold we really do have a floor!!! Today the goal is to vacuum/mop said floor, and scrub down the kitchen and bathroom. It's amazing how a hit of a possible visit from an "important" friend can serve as such motivation!

One of my favorite things... hugs!!

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Then Sings My Soul Saturday

My little hero Ben has been on my heart a lot lately. I know I haven't written much about him since his death. I think I'm still in shock over it, quite honestly. It's been just over four months since he's been gone- but it still feels like it was yesterday that I got the call from my friend telling me of his passing. It's just that there is something VERY wrong with going to the funeral of a nine year old child.

Let me tell you a little bit about Ben... I knew Ben and his twin brother James from church. I was incredibly blessed to be their church school teacher for the fall sessions of their kindergarten and first grade years. I had so much fun with these kids- they were so smart and really kept me on my toes with their questions and desire to learn about God. Ben in particular was very "deep", if you know what I mean. He seemed much older than his years. On the first day of church school in their first grade year, I gave the kids the project of some "fill in the blank" type sentences... things like, "my name is...", "my favorite thing about church is..."-- you get the idea. One of the fill in the blanks was, "I am special because...". I will never forget Ben's answer to that question-- he wrote that he was special because he was STRONG. Truer words have never been spoken... a week later, Ben received the diagnosis of Stage 2 Osteosarcoma (bone cancer) in the upper right arm. So began a VERY long three years. To read the details of Ben's journey, you can look at his website http://www.greendrakkoman.com/. Over those years, Ben became an inspiration and true hero to each and every person he met, whether in person or through his website. His motto was, "Remember- Focus on the Positive!". The way he chose to live his life dealing with that awful monster, or as he referred to it, the "evil alien"- was something that will be with me forever. He taught everyone around him lessons in positive thinking, in finding joy in every little thing, in loving with your whole heart, in making the most out of each and every day... the list goes on. Ben's wake and funeral drew over 1000-- yes, you read that correctly, ONE THOUSAND, people!!! At the funeral, Ben's uncle stood and mentioned the quote, "it takes a village to raise a child"... but then quickly corrected it by saying that in Ben's case, "it took a CHILD to raise a village". After that, one by one, people stood up sharing about how Ben had touched their lives. Rumor has it that there were even two Red Sox players at the funeral... Ben's touch was far-reaching. Ben's touch continues today. Not a day goes by that I don't think of my little hero... there are days that I shed some tears at the loss of this special little guy- but mostly I rejoice that he is up in Heaven, probably playing a great game of baseball with Jesus (wearing his Red Sox cap, of course!) and no longer in any pain!!! I also rejoice that I can say I knew Ben, and thank God for the things he taught me- lessons in life that I will hold on to forever! I miss you SO much Ben!!

The song I picked for today's "Then Sings My Soul Saturday", is a song that we sang at Ben's funeral (do you have any idea how hard it is to sing while watching a small casket being moved to the front of the church?)... Anyway- Ben knew that Jesus loved him... there was NO question about that... and Ben loved Jesus- what a wonderful reunion they must have had!!!

Just a brief request, as you're reading this and listening to this song... please say a prayer for Ben's parents, Stacy and Tim, and especially his twin brother James. I can't even begin to imagine their grief... but God promises us that He will "comfort those who mourn."

Thankful Thursday

Yah, ok so it's been a down in the dumps kinda week... not sure why, maybe just my grief/loss catching up with me. But there is one really big thing I am thankful for-- well, have been thankful for... that is the wonderful, amazing, miraculous healing of my dear friend and priest, Fr Nigel from H1-N1. It is only by the grace of God and the prayers of the people, that he is still with us. I know I've told his story here before, but there is not a day that goes by that I don't praise God for the true MIRACLE of his healing!! Below is a letter to the editor that Fr Nigel has sent to area newspapers telling of his healing, and thanking those involved. It's a wonderful reminder of the good in our world, and more importantly a reminder that God is STILL in the business of healing!

Dear Editor,

I have just gone through a life threatening disease; H1N1, which hit me out of the blue. I was very fit until October of last year. I was in Saratoga Springs Hospital ICU and Sunnyview rehab in Schenectady, for a total of three months. For the first three weeks in a coma. I felt moved to write to thank the medical staff of Saratoga Hospital and the pulmonary doctors of Saratoga for saving my life. A huge thank you to Dr's. Ares, Ying, and Del Giacco. I would like to thank the Sunnyview rehab staff and especially thank the Greenwich Family Medical facility, Dr. Austin Tsai and Dr. Colleen Quinn for their devotion, kindness and compassion. The nurses in ICU and all nurses we have been in contact with in all of the medical facilities, and visiting nurses of Washington County have just been amazing. As horrible as the physical effects of being so ill is, the people that surrounded me have been totally fantastic. I have seen another side of human nature being very kind and considerate, it has refreshed my very soul. So often news is rather negative I just wanted to write something positive to thank all those who saved my life and to remind people that it is good to be alive! I really want to say publicly, thank you to all those who prayed for me and all those involved in my healing.

Yours sincerely, The Rev. Nigel Mumford

For all cat lovers...

I saw this video online several months ago and it made me laugh so much I fell over. I found it again today and decided to post it here. It's a light spot in the midst of some of my grief. If you're a cat lover, you'll definitely relate to this!! Get ready to laugh until you cry!!!

The Simple Woman's Daybook

FOR TODAY... February 15, 2010

Outside my window... beautiful sunny day- a few flurries, but otherwise really nice

I am thinking... that I could really use a hug right now... uhhh, didn't I say that last week too?

I am thankful for... the great hugs I got from Deacon Frank and Fr Jim at the Prayer and Praise Revival service on Friday night-- somehow they both seem to know when I'm having a tough time- which lately seems to be all the time. They're both such wonderful brother type figures in my life- I'm blessed to know them!!!

I am wearing... jeans, white turtleneck

I am remembering... more than I want to- more than I am ready to

I am going... to an Ash Wednesday service on, well, Wednesday and an Induction Service (the formal welcome of a priest by the bishop- in this case Fr Jim, to a new parish) at St Luke's in Cambridge on Sunday... other than that a pretty quiet week. (Still skipping the Tuesday healing service... and no, I still haven't figured out what's up with that!)

I am currently reading... Overcome By the Spirit by Francis MacNutt- a book about "resting in the spirit"- great information on this interesting and controversial topic--maybe I need to rest in the spirit for a bit... perhaps that might give me some answers to the nagging questions in my heart lately.

I am hoping... to talk with Fr Nigel about some "stuff" (see all of the above)- perhaps a "stump the priest" type session-- soon- really SOON!!!

On my mind... the need for security and stability... hate this feeling- sometimes it actually makes me feel nauseous!!!!!

Noticing that... I've gotten to the place in my grief that I am just unable to even talk about my pain- this scares me a lot. I just keep internalizing it, which I know isn't healthy. A friend from the Friday night revival has tried to get me to talk about my pain- or even to allow myself to cry, but I am just afraid to let it go- and as I said, there are just no words right now. I know I mentioned this last week, and really haven't gotten anywhere with it. Not sure where to begin, or even how to begin. Suggestions??

Pondering these words... "Sometimes in life... even God does a double-take!"

From the kitchen... this recipe for Chicken Pot Pie, taco salad, meatloaf, and gingerbread muffins.

Around the house... getting some serious unpacking done today-- hooray!!!

One of my favorite things... friendly bloggy friends, friendly friends who read my messed up words, about my messed up life and keep coming back to encourage and support. Thanks for loving me in spite of myself! :-)

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The Simple Woman's Daybook

FOR TODAY... February 8, 2010

Outside my window... slightly over-cast- forecast of some flurries today

I am thinking... that I could really use a hug right now.

I am thankful for... God's gift of healing.

I am wearing... my jammies, wrapped in a big flannel blanket

I am remembering... all that I've lost over the last few months.

I am going... not far this week. Skipping the healing service tomorrow (just needing a break from those right now- no idea what's up with that... I'll let you know when I do).

I am currently reading... the Bible- needing to hold on to the Promises of God lately.

I am hoping... for a BIG snowstorm at least once this winter. We've had a few mini storms so far, but nothing huge. I just like how the big storms make everyone and everything move at a slower pace.

On my mind... lots of stuff that I can't even begin to put words to. Not being able to talk with anyone about my loss has been hard, and is starting to eat away at me. Now I'm at the point where the pain has no words... just lots of tears, that I fight back because I think I should be strong. I know that's not true, but part of me is afraid that if I start to cry, I just wont stop. Used to be able to talk with Fr Nigel about all this kind of stuff, but he's been a little (a lot) out of commission lately, and even when he's back to work (hopefully March 1st) my guess is that his schedule will either be fully booked or very part-time... probably both. In the meantime, I just take things one moment at a time, and try realllllllllly hard to trust God in all of this.

Noticing that... I think I'm in a "funk" lately... not sure what's up with that, but I don't like it in the least!

Pondering these words... mreoooowwww, meeeooooowwww, mrrrrreeeeooooowwwwww! ~~Don't you ever wonder what kitties are saying when they get in your face and start talking and talking and talking!???

From the kitchen... nothing special this week.

Around the house... would you believe that we're still climbing over boxes and still cant find anything. My goal today is to, at the very least, move the furniture to it's proper locations. The boxes are all my roomies stuff... not much I can do about that. My room, however is put away and uncluttered... yes, I've turned into a neat-nick! ACK!!!

One of my favorite things... sun tea-- in the middle of winter. I make this the way my aunt used to, with lemonade. Not only does it taste really great, but it has such wonderful childhood memories that go along with it.

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Then Sings My Soul Saturday- The Warrior is a Child

I had decided this morning, to use this song for my post today.... thinking of the song kind of going along with the events of my life lately. But when I found the song with this video, it took on a whole new meaning. Soon I found myself wiping away tears... my guess is that you will too. God bless our troops... please keep them in your prayers!!

Thankful Thursday

Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good;

his love endures forever.

1 Chronicles 16:34

There have been so many changes in my life over the last few months. My guess is that there are more to come. What I'm really craving right now is stability and security. I think I'm almost there with that. I love my new "home", and am working hard at finding a job. Yes, there have been obstacles, and they continue. (Yes, I've been dealing with more stress than I thought was possible, and unfortunately that is beginning to effect my health... yah, that worries me.... Yes, my roommates constant negativity and anger issues often make me feel like I'm drowning!) BUT- I realize each and every day how blessed I am. Some days, (like today, when things are less than "bright") I need to push myself to look at my many, many, many blessings... Really glad today is THANKFUL THURSDAY!

Thank you God for...

*the chance to start over in life... not many people get that chance-- I know how very blessed I am!

*my new home in a wonderful little village... we often call it "Mayberry"... seriously population 1,820! I love it here!! Also love the fact that there are no nosey neighbors... they guy in the other apartment couldn't be nicer- really blessed to have him so close!

*my incredibly wonderful church family and priests... what an incredible group of people- I feel so blessed to call them my "family"!! (The other day, my roommate had to have her van towed to the local garage... everybody in town uses "Charlies"... as we were waiting for the van to be unhooked- all of a sudden one of my priests, Fr Joe, appeared. He said he was driving by on his way home and saw us there... he was just stopping to make sure everything was ok. Wow!!!)

*my sweet little kitty Liebe... when I had to give up all my other babies after loosing my home, I was just unable to catch this one little girl. My roommate and I went back to the house late one evening for one more try. Thankfully we got her. But, as we drove her to my former veterinarian's office for a new home, we found that they were closed. Liebe came home with us and has made herself at home... lock, stock and food bowl! She is one of many reminders to me of how much God loves me... yes, I know I've said this before... Liebe is a German word-- it means LOVE!!

*the chance to focus on my relationship with God... and not a man. Someone left a comment recently (Charla, was that you?), asking about my relationship with DD- aka David. On the day "from hell", David told me that he never wanted to see me, or hear from me ever again... he told me that if I ever saw him in public to pretend that I didn't know him, and that he didn't know me. Yes, that hurt A LOT!!! It was like he was rubbing salt into the very open wound. BUT... as the months have progressed, and the healing has begun, I have realized that the 14 years I spent with him were 14 years of abuse... emotional, spiritual and sexual. I know I have a lot of healing to do from this, and I know that will happen in God's incredible timing. What I'm most thankful for, though, is the chance to grow in my relationship with God... no distractions, no hurt... JUST ME AND GOD!! The time that I used to spend with David- and stressing over my relationship with him, I now spend in prayer, in reading my Bible and in silence with the true "love of my life".

... continuing on a much lighter note... I'm also thankful for...

*sun tea (the way my aunt used to make it, with lemonade... great memories!)

*warm sunspots on the floor, perfect for adorable kitties

*cheesecake!

*flannel sheets

*text messaging :-)

*quite days alone, to catch up on life, be with God... just BE!

*loooooooonnnnnggggg HOT baths!

*Tickle-Me-Elmo dolls.... yes I still have one, and yes, it still works... don't know why, but that was one of the things I grabbed from the house when I left... it makes me laugh and smile!

*birthday cakes! (Thanks Pat!!)

Count your blessings-

name them one by one....

Count your many blessings-

see what God has done!

Simple Woman's Daybook

FOR TODAY... February 1, 2010

Outside my window... a beautiful February day- bright and sunny, hardly a cloud in the sky

I am thinking... how blessed I am to be living in this tiny little village- so close to my church and church family- thank you God for my new home!

I am thankful for... the chance to start over in life.

I am wearing... my jammies, big oversized slippers.... just nice and comfy

I am remembering... my furbabies that I had to give up due to the foreclosure. That hurt SO much... still does. Praying that this pain will heal soon!!

I am going... nowhere today-- love days like that!!

I am currently reading... "The Sword of the Spirit~The Word of God A Handbook for Praying God's Word" by Joy Lamb

I am hoping... for a quiet birthday tomorrow. Would love to spend some time with a few friends from church, but realize that's not likely. I think just spending the day baking for some friends will make me happy... and maybe a visit to the Ice cream Man at some point?

On my mind... the reality of the foreclosure taking place today. I know God has given me a wonderful blessed chance to start over, but it's hard knowing all that I left behind and cant get back. But, I also know that life isn't about "things"- God has made that VERY clear to me over the past few months and in a lot of ways it's very freeing to be free of "stuff"... guess it's just the memories that are hard to let go of... does that make sense? Yes, lots of healing to do in all of this, but God has gotten me this far and will provide the healing in His way and time.

Noticing that... the older I get, the more my bones creek and my muscles squeak and my back yells, "I don't think so!" ... LOL... Will be 45 tomorrow- that's half way to 90... yikes!!!!

Pondering these words... "Remember... Focus on the Positive"..(thanks Ben- we miss you!!!... Yah, so it does take a child to raise a village.)

From the kitchen... lots of leftovers from this weekend, but will be making this, and this and this for some friends... that is, when I find the kitchen- I know it's here somewhere under all these boxes!! :-)

Around the house... unpacking, unpacking and MORE unpacking

One of my favorite things... a sweetly sleeping kitty, right in a nice warm sunspot- she looks so peaceful! (Thank you God, for the gift of little Liebe!)

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Friday's Fave Five

Almost back to normal blogging again... And it's Friday... that means, yes, it's Friday's Fave Five again!!!

It's been a pretty average week, as far as life these days goes... more moving (no, we're STILL not out of the other place yet- God help us, we only have a week left to move the rest of the stuff and get the place cleaned out... LOL... yes, I'm laughing- it's so much easier than crying! LOL), more of trying to adjust to the "new normal" in life, and more of trying to heal from the last few months. BUT- as always, God is in charge and I just take things one moment at a time, trusting HIM to direct my path, thoughts and words.

In spite of an average week, there are a few things that jumped out at me as being special, aka worth writing about. So..... without further adu, FRIDAY'S FAVE FIVE!!...

1. Last night I made my favorite Macaroni and Cheese recipe. I found this recipe years ago, and it quickly became my favorite. Isn't mac and cheese the ultimate comfort food.... after mashed potatoes, that is?

2. A weekly (most of the time) event that I've been attending is the newly created Friday evening Revival Praise and Worship events that are going on in the diocese. I love the chance to visit with my friends, to praise God in word and song and to spend time with my wonderful Lord and Savior!! Tonight the Revival is a bit out of town, but a bunch of us from the area are carpooling, so it should be a really fun evening!! (If you're in the Capital region of New York State, please come join us!!)

3. Once again, I need to thank God for the incredible healing of my dear friend and priest, Fr Nigel. Back in October, he contracted that DAMN (yes, I can say that) H1-N1. We are now hearing how VERY close we came to loosing him. He shared with us recently, that on October 10th, he collapsed and stopped breathing- that news in itself took MY breath away. He was rushed to the hospital, where he spent the better part of two months mostly in ICU, and mostly on a ventilator. Somewhere around October 16th, the doctors told his wife that there was nothing more they could do for him. That was where the thousands of his prayer warriors stepped into action. I vividly remember that night falling to my knees and screaming at God to save my dear friend. I cried, begged- pleaded for his life to be spared. In talking with others, I have found that I was not alone in my actions that night. This man is SO deeply loved by SO many people all over the world!! Anyway... fast forward to today....!!! Fr Nigel is home, doing VERY well in his recovery. He's not back to work yet, but has been visiting us on occasion. (It's been SO good to see him- gosh I've missed him!) Hopefully, he'll be back to work, at least part time, by the end of February. (Or so that's what I'm hearing.) Not a day goes by that I don't praise God for his incredible healing!! Fr Nigel himself has said, that he knows that he is still here because of the prayers of the people. God has heard our cries for mercy and has healed our friend! He is walking, talking and BREATHING proof that God DOES indeed heal today! Thank you God, thank you Jesus, thank you Holy Spirit, thank you Holy Trinity!!

4. I was in a "next to new" store the other day and bought a CD by The Priests. I'd never heard of them before, but liked the titles of the songs on the CD. Oh.... my.... gosh.... this CD is fantastic. The voices of these men are beautiful and totally touch my soul. Needless to say, this is my new favorite CD- I've been blasting it constantly (over the secular music downstairs in the bar LOL) in the apartment. Talk about "market place evangelism"! LOL But seriously, check these guys out (well, you know what I mean)- you won't be disappointed!

5. We've had exceptionally beautiful weather here this last week. Yes, a few days with some snow, but even then it was a warm (for this time of year) day. I went for a long walk around the village the other evening, and almost felt like it was spring! Today, the sun is shining brightly... little Liebe has found a wonderful "sun spot" on my bed and is sleeping sweetly and soundly... even kitties are loving this weather! Thank you God for sunshine and warmth!!

Yes.... it's been a good week! I'm SO blessed!!

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FOR TODAY... January 4, 2010

Outside my window... dark and snow covered, cold-- soooo cold- praying for an EARLY (like next week) spring!

I am thinking... how good it feels to be back doing the daybook again... it's been too long.

I am thankful for... cold wine coolers, that take the edge off a long, long, long day

I am wearing... jeans, brown/tan/black/green sweater

I am remembering... my wonderful Mom, who went to Heaven seven years ago next week- gosh, it still hurts soooooo much-- does it ever get easier?

I am going... to bed- VERY soon!

I am currently reading... Psalm 91 Handbook

I am hoping... (and praying) for Fr Nigel's return to work VERY soon... (soon, right Sandra- SOON?) after almost three months of being out sick with that DAMN H1-N1 which turned into pneumonia and put the poor guy on a ventilator (in a medically induced coma) for 40... yes forty days!!!! Gosh, I miss him!

On my mind... see above

Noticing that... God has been teaching me about patience lately- I don't like patience... I don't have the patience for patience!!!

Pondering these words... "When your out-put exceeds your in-put, then your up-keep will be your down-fall" (by British evangelist J John)

From the kitchen... cinnamon rolls and molasses cookies- requested for the reception after an ordination this weekend (Congratulations (soon to be) Fr Scott!!)

Around the house... packing, packing and more packing

One of my favorite things~ wine coolers :-)

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Lesson from a Crocheted Scarf...

In an attempt to avoid doing anything remotely productive yesterday morning, I sat on the sofa wrapped in a snuggly comforter, a large mug of hot chocolate on the end-table, and kitty Liebe sitting dutifully by my side, happy to help tangle my yarn at any given moment. Several weeks ago I began an attempt at a crocheted scarf for myself, but with moving and all, just really hadn't had time to work on it much. Trying to avoid packing, laundry and doing dishes, was the perfect excuse to pick the project up again.

As I was working on the scarf, I realized pretty quickly that I was not likely going to have enough yarn to make anything close to functional ie- it would have been VERY short. I also realized that it seemed very wide- what was I thinking when I first started it.... hmmm!! I knew that if I started over, making it a bit less wide, I'd be able to make a scarf that was functional and beautiful. So, I began the "painful" process of unraveling what I'd begun... tearing it apart.

This is where God spoke to me. He showed me that my life was similar to that scarf. What I'd begun just wasn't working out so well and He needed to help me start over. So, similar to the tearing apart of the scarf, He needed to, in essence, tear apart my life to make it functional and beautiful. The last few months have been horribly painful, and I know that the pain is not likely over. I haven't even begun to deal with my grief/loss yet, and I know that will be a time filled with many tears. But I also know that God wants to re-make me. He will provide the healing, the right people to support me, and the direction that He wants me to head. God knows the "big picture" here. I am (most of the time) content with knowing that He can see what I am not able to. So, if He feels that perhaps some "tearing apart" is necessary to make something more beautiful and functional, then I'm ok with that.

I was able to complete the "tearing apart" and "re-making" of my scarf yesterday. It did turn our beautiful-- just like my life will. Every time I look at the scarf, I will be reminded of God's love for me- that He loves me SO much, that He knew I had to be "torn apart" to be made new. Thank you God!!

Happy New Year, everyone!! 2010 looks to be the BEST year ever!!

Christmas message from CANA Bishop Martyn Minns

Just doing some surfing, and came across this wonderful Christmas message from CANA (Convocation of Anglicans in North America) Bishop Martyn Minns. I love it's message, and thought it was worth posting here today... Happy Birthday, Jesus!!!!



Jesus Is Closer Than Ever!

Another poor baby has arrived. He’s homeless. He’s clothed in rags. His mother is unmarried. His people are treated as refugees in their own land. That’s how the First Advent happened.



Well, you don’t need me to tell you that some things haven’t changed that much and the state of the global village is decidedly mixed. Perhaps you now find yourself unemployed or rocked by a foreclosure or facing some overwhelming challenge. In the midst of these problems we may feel that Jesus is so far away. But it’s precisely during these times of turmoil that Jesus is closer than ever.



Jesus’ teaching about the Final Judgment (Matthew 25:31–46) makes the point that the God who became flesh and dwelt among us has never really left us. Jesus foretold that at the Second Advent he will say to the faithful: “I was hungry, and you fed me. I was thirsty, and you gave me a drink. I was a stranger, and you invited me into your home. I was naked, and you gave me clothing. I was sick, and you cared for me. I was in prison, and you visited me.”



For those of us in the depths of despair, Jesus’ words remind us that he so identifies with our problems that he says he is the one who is hungry; he is the one who is thirsty; he is the one who feels like a stranger. We don’t face our problems alone. Jesus suffers when we’re suffering. Jesus is closer than ever.



Jesus’ words also are a clarion call to the church during these days. With longer lines of people at food pantries, with homeless shelters accommodating more and more “middle-class” families, with more people knocking on our church doors for help, the opportunities to feed the hungry and shelter the homeless are not hard to find. Jesus is closer than ever.Your church may feel that the numbers of people needing help are overwhelming, and that your members have so few resources of their own. But we recall the time that Jesus took two fish and five loaves of bread, all that the disciples had to offer, and fed a crowd of more than 5,000 hungry people. They didn’t think they had enough but Jesus took what they offered and blessed a multitude. Jesus is still at work.



I heard about him showing up at a federal penitentiary in Kentucky where CANA Chaplain John Hallock has led many Muslim inmates to Christ this year. Jesus is also at work in Garland, Texas, where Christ the Redeemer Church has initiated a multi-faceted outreach in a public housing neighborhood and many lives have been transformed. Last November I saw Jesus at work in a congregation of 200-some homeless men and women who regularly worship at Truro Church in Fairfax, Virginia. Last week I heard about ways in which Jesus is changing lives at All Saints Church in San Antonio, Texas. Jesus is busy throughout CANA; he’s all over the country. Jesus is closer than ever . . . if we just have eyes that want to see him



.Let us go to the manger. Let us marvel in his presence. Let us bring him our gifts. Let us tell others about him.



Jesus is here!

Your Brother in Christ,

+Martyn

The Rt. Rev'd Martyn Minns

Missionary Bishop of CANA

Update on life... and stuff...

I can see from my last post that it's been almost exactly a month since I've last written here. Alot has changed, and yet, not much has changed. We're a week away from Christmas, and I'm doing my best to focus totally on the birth of our wonderful Lord. My loss is still very much a part of me. I told a priest friend recently that I haven't even begun to deal with my loss, and I don't feel the least bit ready. He reassured me that healing will come in time. (Thanks Fr Jim!)

Ok... so what is still the same.... Let's start by the fact that God's love is everlasting and will never, ever change. His love is the only constant in my life right now, and I thank Him every day for His presence in my life. When I'm at the end of my rope, He whispers peace in my ear... sometimes through the words of others or a gentle hug from a friend-- sometimes by a soft breeze-- sometimes through His Holy Word. Whatever it is, it always comes at just the right moment. Thank you God for loving me and healing my brokenness.

Also the same, for now, is that I'm still living at my friends apartment. Things have been up and down with that for the entire last month. I am SO craving stability and security right now. Her finances also hit bottom, so about a week ago, we decided to get a different and cheaper apartment together in Greenwich (about a mile from CTK). That was going really well... we're actually still scheduled to move in on 12/28.... it's a beautiful apartment in a nice area and very affordable.... but.... yesterday morning my friend's mom died. Yah, so that put a fly in the ointment. I'm praying that the move still happens. It's an ideal situation, and God is making it SO clear that that is the direction He wants me to move in. I think my friend needs to try and see past her grief and attempt to make some good choices... right now that's not happening. I trust God, and am praying that He will guide her heart to the right decisions.

Ok... so what has changed.... alot... alot. Let's begin with the fact that, praise God, the depression that I've been fighting for years, has seemingly lifted!!! That's a huge healing, in so many ways. God continues to speak peace into my heart, moment by moment. He has also taught me, not so gently, but necessary, that life isn't about "things". Life, is about our relationship with God... He wants our ALL. God's word tells is that Jesus told his disciples to leave everything behind and follow Him. I know that's what He wants of me, and I know that by ridding me of "things" He is beginning the process of making that a reality. My only "things" right now consist of some clothes (not many) and a few boxes of memories. I'm ok with that. God did bless me however, with being able to save one of my "babies" and keep her with me. You can't imagine the blessing she's been. Her name is Liebe, which is a German word... it means LOVE. She is a furry reminder of God's love for me.

Hmmmm, ok so what else has changed.... The night of my last post, God led me to a Revival Praise and Worship that takes place every Friday night in my area. It goes to different churches (usually Anglican/Episcopal), on a rotating/by invitation basis. My friend and I have started going on a regular basis, depending on location. The group that goes, is usually pretty regular and we're all becoming very close. They are an amazing group of people!! These are people who love God with all their hearts, souls, minds and bodies. We pray, and prepare ourselves for the return of our wonderful Lord, which we all believe will be soon. The service is a time to lay down our burdens, leaving them at the foot of the cross, and give our hearts totally over to praising God!! Our leaders are some of the most Godly people I've ever had the pleasure of knowing! From Deacon Frank (who is without question, the most "un-deacon-like" person I've ever met (I say that with love)... LOL... but who has an incredible gift of discernment and who gives the best hugs EVER!), Mother Susan and her husband Ralph (who hear words from the Lord on a moment to moment basis that often send us to our knees), Fr Steve (who has a gift for leading us to letting go and letting God just take over our lives- giving it all to Him) to Fr Jim- our worship leader (he has a beautiful voice and can play the piano like no one I've ever met), and his wife Ginny (who are truly two of the most compassionate and loving people I've EVER met) I'm in awe of the gifts of these people who have given their lives over totally to serving God. I want what they have- their gifts of leadership, discernment, gentleness and compassion, speaking words from our God... I believe that God is leading me in that direction. Mother Susan has already told us that just by being at the revival meetings every week, that she considers us part of the leadership team.... WOW!! Yah, that's what I want. Ok, so what has changed.... God has led me to this incredible group of people! Thank you God!!!

Yikes, so this is getting long... very long... sorry! Has it been even remotely interesting? I think I'll wrap up for now and try to maybe write more tomorrow. It feels good to write again, gosh-I've missed this!! So, maybe writing is one of my gifts too...???

Love to all!!!

just a quick PS

On an even sadder note... well, maybe not... just different. I know a lot of my bloggy friends out there were praying for a special little boy named Ben. Remember him?? Sadly, I need to report that Ben earned his angel wings on Columbus Day. So, please pray for Ben's family, especially his twin brother James. Please pray also, for a cure to childhood cancer... no child should EVER have to suffer from such an awful thing.

Fly high little Ben. We miss you so much!!!

a new beginning... and saying goodbye

It's been quite a while since my last post. Since then a lot has happened to me. There has been a lot of joy, but there has been an equal amount (no, who am I kidding... there has been a ton more) of pain and tears.

As I write this, I'm at a friends apartment. She's been kind enough to let me stay here for a while- how long, I don't know, but I'm grateful for each and every moment. This week, after a long struggle with finances- I lost my home. It's the only home I've ever known. Walking away from it has been heartbreaking. Even more heartbreaking though, was having to give up my pets. Just thinking about that moment this past Thursday makes me cry again... this is a different kind of grief. While I know that they're safe with my veterinarian, who is finding them new homes- I just miss them SO much!!! I know that this too will heal... right? Someone tell me that it will heal... right??

I struggle with God's hand in all of this. While I know that He did not cause it, I often wonder why He couldn't have stepped in and changed things around so the ending might have been different. Lord, help me understand Your ways!!

I had hoped this post might have been longer and more eloquent.... but as I write, I realize that I am at a loss for words. The fear, the grief, the confusion... I know there are other words-but just cant be put into words. I am trying with all my heart to believe that God has a plan for me and that He wont fail me- but honestly right now I'm not sure what to think. I think I need others to believe for me right now. My heart hurts- a lot!!

I have an incredible group of friends who are standing by me, as much as they can. At a revival service last night, a dear deacon from CTK hugged me and told me that I had an army of prayer warriors behind me. Yah, so maybe God is telling me He loves me through people like Deacon Lynn, and Sandra, and Lois, and Diane, and Pat, and Gail, and Susan, and Debbie, and Robin, and dear Fr Nigel, (who has spent the last 43 days in the hospital... nearly 40 of that on a ventilator in ICU... but praise God is doing much better.... I know though, that even though he's not aware of the situation that he knows I'm in need of prayer... he always teaches us that God knows the exact need and all we need to do is ask) and and and....

Ok, signing off for now. Don't know when I'll be back, but hope it's soon. I've missed writing and all my bloggy friends.

Love to all!!

prayer please

If there is anyone out there in blog land- I am in huge need of prayer right now.... my financial problems have caught up with me and things are just not good right now... I'm an absolute mess- and never been so scared in all my life!

I was able to get an emergency appointment with Fr Nigel tomorrow (he's not in the office today, but I so wish he were)- talked with one of his staff who prayed with me over the phone- thank you God for Sandra!

I don't want to loose faith-- but right now, I am... and just cant pray. It's not that I don't believe that God loves me- I know He does- He just seems VERY far away right now.

Thanks for the prayers.... they're appreciated!

The Simple Woman's Daybook

For Today...


Outside my window... bright sunny day- temp near 70ish, I think... storms on the way (so what else is new)


I am thinking... that I hope my laundry dries on the clothesline before the storms hit- not promising though


From the kitchen... tuna/white bean/ basil tortilla wraps later for DD and I for dinner (that is unless he gets stuck in an emergency at work)


I am wearing... khaki shorts, red shirt, barefoot


I am reading... (about to read) the summer edition of Philo Trust Magazine (by Christian evangelist J John).... these usually have an awesome message- can't wait to sit back and read it


I am hoping... a solid, un-interrupted nights sleep tonight- I'm tired today


I am creating... not much today, but did do a painting yesterday


I am praying... for a friend whose cat is very sick- that if God must take little Muffins life- He do so quickly and peacefully and that my friend finds acceptance and peace.......for my little hero Ben that this chemo works and that he enjoys his day as bat boy with the Red Sox on Friday...... for a friend from CTK who has some serious mental issues- that she can find the help and healing that she needs....... for Fr Nigel's missing pet turtle- that he be found safely (don't laugh- someone apparently stole Mr Turtle from his office over the weekend- how sick is that... stealing a priest's pet turtle- talk about a need for healing!)...... oh... and that I find a job- like soon!


One of my favorite things... warm, sunny days sitting by the pond at CTK- enjoying the peace and quiet, the friendly visitors, the numerous critters (never know what you'll see there) and the unbelievable presence of Christ

A few plans for the rest of the week... healing service tomorrow- but beyond that, no clue- except for as always, spending time with my wonderful and loving God


Here is a picture thought I am sharing with you...

goats are such friendly creatures... (yes, this is me at CTK )

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Friday's Fave Five

Oh my gosh, what a week this has been!! Except for my microwave making a "grand exit", (read: spewing smoke and nasty fumes all through my house), it's been a fantastic week!! Here are a few highlights...

1. Can I take a minute (maybe more than one) to brag about my church??? God has blessed me with the most incredible church and church family in the entire world!! After being in and out of many denominations throughout my life (born and raised Methodist, a couple years in the Catholic church, a couple Sunday's in a "Community" church and a few visits to a "non denominational" church-- etc... you get the picture) I was beginning to feel that I didn't really "fit" anywhere.... but then, when I was going through a bit of a dark time in my life, DD told me about Christ the King Spiritual Life Center (a ministry of the Episcopal Diocese of Albany). He knew I was going through some "stuff" in my life, and thought that attending one of their healing services might be helpful. So... one fateful Tuesday I made the 45 minute trek up to Greenwich to attend the weekly healing service... can I tell you-- my life was never the same!! As I was sitting in their beautiful chapel, with about 100 others- worshiping God in song and word, hearing Scripture, praying and praying and praying (my first experience with "laying on of hands") the first thought that came to my mind was, "oh my gosh- these people "get it"...". For the first time in my life I felt like I fit in! Several weeks later, when meeting with Fr Nigel, director of the healing ministry, for prayer and counseling, for the first time in my life, I felt totally and completely understood!! CTK is Holy Ground... you feel it the moment you arrive on site- the presence of God is palpable- not only in word, but also in the eyes, hands, compassion of everyone there... yes, the people-- gosh, what can I say about the people... they're so special... you feel like family from your first moment there- there is SUCH love- God's love! Three years after arriving there for the first time- I'm in the process of preparing for Confirmation in the Episcopal church, and have begun the discernment process of possibly becoming a Deacon. Thank you God for leading me to this wonderful place!! Ok... so enough bragging... thanks for letting me share... so tell me about YOUR church now!!

2. I'm one of those with a stupid nut allergy... not only peanuts, but all nuts-- it's realllllly annoying!! But I've discovered Sunflower Seed Butter- which is a really great alternative and SO good! (It's a bit pricey, but will go on sale occasionally) I love eating it any way, but am prone to sit here at my desk and dip crackers right in the jar. YUM!!!!

3. While I'm on the topic of food... sort of... I dug out my sun tea jar this week. It's been quite a while since I've made sun tea, and had forgotten how good it was... throw some sugar, and a little lemon kool-aid in and I'm a happy lady. My aunt used to make it with frozen lemonade (that was SO good!), but I cant afford that right now- maybe sometime, but I'm content with the kool-aid for now.

4. I love having long conversations with friends, or anyone, about what a wonderful God we have!! I consider it a blessing to be able to share about all the wonderful things God has done in my life!!! Several times this week, God has put people in my path that need to hear my story of how God has healed me- in many, many ways. What an honor it is, to spread His message of healing!

5. I've been invited to attend a Woman's Cursillo weekend in November. I hear that this is a life changing event. For some reason, that alone is daunting... but at the same time, I'm really excited about the possibilities of spiritual growth and fellowship. If you've had a Cursillo experience, I'd love to hear about it!

Happy Friday everyone... (late post, sorry!) Enjoy your weekend!!!

The Simple Woman's Daybook

For Today...

Outside my window... cloudy and cool, light rain at the moment- supposed to warm up into the 70's later and maybe some sun

I am thinking... about what a great day DD and I had on Saturday... just hanging out at his house for the day- almost like we were married-- snuggled a lot, argued a bit, made up a bit, did some laundry and work around the house... I think I could get used to this!! (Now, if he'll get the hint and propose!)

I am thankful for... Fr Nigel's return after almost a month of traveling (for healing missions/ conferences) to England, Sweden, England (again), diocese convention in Speculator (NY), Colorado and Maine... gosh I missed him! I vaguely remember hugging him after church yesterday and telling him he was gone for too long... LOL...

From the kitchen... fresh radishes from DD's garden- mine still wont grow for some reason

I am wearing... shorts and a sweater, barefoot

I am reading... more cook books- I do so miss cooking

I am hoping... to find a way to fund a weekend retreat that I REALLY want to get to in July... led by Fr Nigel and Bishop Bill on "Healing of Memories"- did the same retreat two years ago on the topic of Forgiveness... it was life changing... expect this one will be too- just need to find a way to make it happen... please God!?

I am creating... a dream- a plan

I am praying... for my little hero Ben- this cancer just wont let up... was supposed to start a new chemo last week- praying that this one works. On a lighter note though, on July 3rd, he'll be on the field with the Red Sox as a bat boy for their game... how cool is this! I'm SO excited for him!

Around the house... so much to do, so little energy to do it with (didn't I say that last week too?... eek!)

One of my favorite things... hoping to start crocheting a prayer shawl this week- looking forward to a rainy day (yes, I love those) to just sit on my back porch, listen to the rain and crochet and pray all day

A few plans for the rest of the week... tomorrow the usual Tuesday healing service at CTK, weeding, trying to put up some sort of fencing around the garden to keep the cute critters from eating it all, hopefully spending a day with DD and as always, spending time with my wonderful and loving God

Here is a picture thought I am sharing with you...

~my favorite place in the world~

Friday's Fave Five

It's been an interesting week- (much better than last week) and there is a lot that stands out as being significant, as far as "a favorite part"...

1. God taught me a huge lesson in tithing this week. With being unemployed (still), the funds are hard to come by, and usually only appear through the goodness of DD or friends, and when they do, I try to manage them with an iron fist. Unfortunately, that has meant not giving to the church as I would really like. Well, this past Tuesday, at the weekly healing service I had one dollar left to my name... do you know how scary that is? But, as I was sitting in the service I felt God impressing on me to "give all I have"- meaning, to trust Him enough to give Him that last dollar. For some reason, when it came time for the offering, I didn't find this hard in the least- I guess I'm growing in my trusting, huh? Anyway- lesson here... if we give God all we have, He WILL provide for our needs. Within a short time after the service, one friend had handed me some money and given me a bag of food, and another friend had bought me lunch. Whoa... Ok, I get it Lord! Yesterday, DD called and offered to take me grocery shopping. Do you know what it feels like to suddenly have food, when the pantry shelves were basically empty? I get overwhelmed when I think about God's grace and provision. He really IS an awesome God!

2. The song Days of Elijah is probably my favorite song of all time. We sang it Tuesday at the Healing service and WOW was the presence of God ever among us- it was palpable!! I find such hope and comfort in the coming of our Lord. I pray daily for His return, an wait with joyful anticipation His presence among us! What a wonderful day that will be!!

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3. Yesterday was a seriously rainy day. I know I'm one of the few, but I love rain. I find it beautiful and peaceful. When it's not a cold, icy rain- there is nothing I love more than to take a walk and feel the healing gentleness of God's love washing over me.

4. I've been doing a lot of daydreaming this week about what could be-- making some plans (at least in my head) and trying to figure out a way to make those dreams happen. I love daydreaming- it's provides such hope. There is a saying I remember back from my childhood days... "Hold fast to dreams, for if dreams die, life is a broken winged bird that cannot fly." Yah, so I think I've forgotten how to dream... thanks to God for putting those dreams back in my head, and to Jan for reminding me that it's ok to dream!

5. And, last but not least- and on a much more shallow note LOL... I love hummus (extra garlic, please)!!! Yesterday when DD took me grocery shopping, I got a big tub of it... yes, it's gone already! So, a little self indulgence never hurt- God does want us to be happy, and if that comes from time to time in a tub of hummus, I think He'd be ok with that!

Happy Friday everyone... enjoy your weekend!

For Today...

Outside my window... bright, bright sunshine- puddles everywhere from a brief, recent thunderstorm, with more on the way later today... about 70 degrees


I am thinking... how odd it is that I actually LIKE the storms- they used to terrify me, but now I almost welcome them (not the bad ones, mind you- heavy wind and violent lightening, I can do without!)


I am thankful for... a wonderful guy who brought me homemade rhubarb pie on his way to work this morning


From the kitchen... think I may try making this sometime this week- actually have everything in the house for it, and it looks SO good


I am wearing... khaki shorts, purple shirt, barefoot


I am reading... all my old cookbooks (and there are many... many... many)


I am hoping... that someone-anyone, will respond to my resume- unemployment really STINKS


I am creating... a dream- a plan-- to be who God wants me to be


I am praying... that God shows me how to put the dream-plan in motion (and provides the finances to do so)


Around the house... the garden is in desperate need of weeding- it's embarrassing, trying to clean the back porch- (scrub down the walls, hang curtains (to block view of annoying neighbor), wash blankets on day bed (used over the winter as the comfy home of my adorable little mice- I do like mice, yes, I'm being serious- I just don't want to share a bed with them)...)


One of my favorite things... dreaming about what could be- doing a lot of that lately


A few plans for the rest of the week... not much in the way of errands, but see "around the house" for the other stuff


Here is a picture thought I am sharing with you

this is (was) some of the lettuce growing in my garden...

before the rabbits had a really great dinner....

oh well, they need to eat too!